Can you see me in these bright lights?

I have power! Woohooooooooooooooo! It came back last night around 6pm. I was never so glad to see lights come on in my life. The idea of packing up and moving out for a few days did not appeal to me. You hear about looters and stuff at times like this, and while I don't consider my neighborhood to be questionable by any means (I'm a block away from the police station, for heaven's sake!) you just never know who might have gotten the bright idea that if the electric was out, my security system was probably out as well, and since our cars were gone, we probably weren't home. And poof, there goes my 52" hi def TV!

Plus, I was going to have to stay with my ex husband, in my ex house, in my ex bed. All of my family was in the same boat (no electricity) except my sister Patty, so she was being inundated with visitors as the rest of the family was functioning out of her house! So Jordan was going to go to a friend's, and I was going to go to Ex's with the dogs. Normally it really wouldn't have bothered me one way or another. He and I have this weird relationship now, not married anymore, not romantically involved, not really friends but not enemies. We're friendly, I guess. Of course we still talk to each other every day in some manner, either via text, IM chat, phone. But I see him maybe every couple of weeks, on a weekend we'll have dinner or take the boat out if it's nice or go to a movie.

But, right now...this week...it's not good for me to be around him. This Saturday would have been our 5th wedding anniversary, and it's the first time that September 20th has been on a Saturday again, so it's even a little harder for me. In past years, at least when 11:30am rolled around, I was busy at work and not thinking about it. This year will be different. I'm already planning on being very busy doing something that morning to forget what I was doing 5 years ago that same morning. The whole thing just still hurts.

So yeah, I'm feeling emotional right now. And staying at "our" house wasn't really a good idea. I think the Universe felt sorry for me and turned my power back on to keep me from potentially doing anything stupid in a weak vulnerable moment!

Who am I kidding. It has nothing to do with vulnerability. I just need laid. But going back around *that* block with him would not be a good plan.

At least I know that now, right?

Oh, and hey! I loved it yesterday that my comments basically can be summarized as follows:

1. Jill would like to join Deb and Georgie in some girl on girl action in a vat of chocolate pudding.

2. Amy is willing to slather baby oil on Deb and Georgie as well.

3. Vinnie is turned on by the idea and wants to watch.

I love my peeps.