Wednesday, November 21, 2012

It's a good day for thanks let me give 'em.

OK so I'm a day early.

But when you consider the fact that I haven't blogged in over a month, I'm actually late.

So there you have it.

But tomorrow is Thanksgiving, and I figured it was a good time for me to tell you the things I am thankful for this year.

I think this one goes without saying:

We all know I love these two more than life itself. I'm very thankful to have a happy and healthy "adult" child (how is my baby going to be 22 next month??) who is really taking charge of his own future. I did something right with that one. And his baby....God knows I love her more than is probably normal. But I can't help it.

There are a lot of reasons why I have this overwhelming love for Mora. I have never been a big dog person, even though I've had dogs since Jordan was probably 4. I just never felt that "Oh, he's my furry child" thing. I cared about them all.

Ashton was our first dog, he was a Shih Tzu, and I had to put him down when he was 2 because he had somehow licked antifreeze in a driveway while we were out trick or treating, and it caused kidney failure.

Then we had Kaya, another Shih Tzu, who I had for a couple of years before Ex and I got married. During the marriage, we got Tilda, a 2 year old black lab who had been trained to be a service dog (but failed her final test, which is why she was available to adopt), and then a month after getting Tilda I got Gracie, my little pocket Yorkie. And two months later Ex started having an affair, and everything went to hell, and he didn't want Tilda (and back then, I didn't think I wanted a big dog) so she went back to the service folks.  Kaya went to live with a friend's parents who were looking for an older Shih Tzu (not a puppy) because I had my hands full with getting a divorce, finding a place to live, finding a new house, getting a new job, etc. (I'm not kidding when I say my life had exploded thanks to that fucktard's affair.) (Sorry, E, if you're still reading this!)

Then once the dust settled, and life had gone on, I was left with Gracie, and I got the bright idea that she was lonely so I ended up getting Griffin, who was also a Yorkie. *That* was the big mistake. He's got some issues, that little guy. So full of anxiety, so needy, and he has driven me insane for 7 years now. Did you ever see the Ice Age movies? Griffin is the crazy squirrel that runs around collecting acorns in that manic, crazed way.


That all brings us to Mora.

As you can tell from my history, I have only ever had small dogs. Most of which stayed 10 lbs and under fully grown. So I never watched a "puppy" grow into a big, beautiful dog. Mora was bigger as an 8 week old when Jordan brought her home, than any of my dogs have ever been fully grown! So watching her grow up...she's 6 1/2 months old now and about 70 lbs....has been so fun. I've gotten to spend so much time with her, as a puppy she was at the office every day with me because Jordan worked here too, and my boss is a dog lover and had no problems having a puppy around all the time, and even when Jordan started back to school, I still got to see her two full days a week (and I have her on Wednesdays until 8pm!). So I have fallen in love with this little lady, and believe me when I tell you, she loves Grandma too. She's my little velcro girl...when she's with me she goes everywhere I, bathroom, doesn't matter. She knows when Daddy pulls up to the office or into Grandma's driveway, that she's going to see me, and she gets very excited.

But most importantly, it's watching my son fall in love that has touched my heart. He loves this little girl more than he's ever loved anything in his life. He's so good with her, he's trained her, he takes care of her, he stays home with her (his social life has suffered tremendously but he knew that was a sacrifice he would make when he decided he wanted a puppy) and to see him love her this much, makes me love her even more. She brings unconditional love and joy to my son's life, and as a Mom that makes me happier than anything ever has.

It does scare me a little to think of how I am going to be when I have human grandchildren though. I can't lie.  My friends are a little concerned about that too.

And just so you know, I am thankful for this guy as well:

(Ha! Everybody poses with Mora!)

We celebrated 2 years of togetherness in early August, and while we have had our ups and downs, he's still the one for me. I am in no hurry to get married again...marriage wasn't a good experience for me, and to be honest I am happy with the way we are right now. He still has his place, I have mine, we take 2 nights a week to ourselves so that we make sure to have time alone to do what we want/need to do as individuals, and that makes us stronger as a couple. I think I'm gonna renew his contract come August for another year if he keeps performing at this level. LOL

I am thankful to still have my sisters Patty and Sue Ellen with me, but I miss my parents and my sister Linda every single day.  I am thankful for their families, as I have some pretty awesome nieces and nephews.

I am thankful that I have close friends who keep me sane, and who allow me to be me.  Believe me when I tell you, my girls have talked me off of more than one ledge.  I would not be who I am today without their advice, guidance, kicks in the ass, and various shenanigans that cannot be put into writing.

I am thankful for my health....this past month I had a scare that sent me to the hospital overnight (thought I was having a heart attack...turns out it was gastritis and a cranky gall bladder...heart is fine!) but that was enough to make me "wake up" and realize I have a lot left to do on this earth and I better get my shit together and get healthier, so that I can be around for those real human grandchildren when they arrive!

I am thankful for my job, and thankful to those clients who keep coming back for our services, and I wish them continued prosperity!

Most of all I am thankful for all the blessings I have in my life. I don't take any of them for granted. I have seen how quickly life can change and I pray every day that the people I love, and who love me, have already experienced the worst days of their lives, whatever that was, and nothing but love, health and happiness is in our futures.

Thank you all who have stayed with my blog all these years. I always think that I will try to get back to blogging regularly but it never happens. I do still try to read yours though....and keep up with your lives.

Happy Thanksgiving, friends. I wish you a blessed day.