I'm 49 today.
Or as I prefer to think of it....thirty nineteen.
Funny to think it's been almost two years already that I started this blog.
Way back when I was 47 and starting over.
Starting over from a very painful divorce.
Starting over as a shark bait (yes, I'm channeling my inner Jimmy Buffet...)
Can't you feel 'em circlin' honey?
Can't you feel 'em swimmin' around?
You got fins to the left, fins to the right,
And you're the only bait in town.
The dating pool was a little scary, the few times I dipped my toe into it over the past few years. Part of that has been my fault, for as much as I've bitched about not meeting the kind of guy I'm looking for, truth is that I haven't been all that attentive when I have.
Maybe that really isn't my priority after all.
Maybe I'm just looking for excitement in all the wrong places.
I've been talking with one of my friends recently about our lives, and how so often we feel "beige". Not unhappy, not happy. Just....beige.
I don't want to live life as a neutral shade during this second half of mine.
I want to be a vibrant color!
I want to be red! Or hot pink!
And that's my goal for my 49th year. (OK technically I think today starts my 50th year doesn't it? Ugh that hurt just typing it!)
I'm not going to be 49 and Beige.
I'm ready to find what makes me tick. What I'm passionate about. Figure out what brings me joy and fills me with light. (Aside from my kid, that goes without saying that he has been the single best thing about my 48 years of life, or at least the last 19 of them)
I'm ready to wake up every day with an abundance of great things to choose from, to finally create the life I've been "waiting" for all this time..
I feel like I've spent 48 years waiting for an exciting life to start.
Well guess what, folks.
It starts today.
I'm not 49 and Beige. I never will be, dammit.
I'm 49 and I'm fucking RED HOT.
My future's so bright we all need Gucci shades.
Thanks for being along on this ride with me the past couple of years. Stay tuned, because this year I plan to have lots of new and exciting things to tell you.